I dissolved the crystal in a glass of white wine. I do not really know the exact dose I took.
Come up
M
T+15m
M
I expected to be more excited and active after I took M, but I felt more calm and like my insides (both organs and my mind) were slowly dissolving until there was nothing inside but an endless ocean. The feeling could mostly be approximated to euphoria and satisfaction. Like everything is done and finished and there is no need, no striving, no sadness, or pain. Just a stillness. It felt good to just watch the wall in front of me. Or close my eyes. I did not feel like moving, I felt I do not even need to breathe, let alone contract some other muscles. I was just weightlessly floating under water. There were not even that many thoughts, like there was honey in my brain, but not as sweet. I was trying to connect with my partner, and I liked the fact that he was around, but mostly it felt good just to be by myself. It withdrew me from any contact.