Intentions:I wanted very much to look beyond the fabric of the world. I wished to gain some of more fundamental, spiritual knowledge about the world.
Expectations:I was imagining it would be something like the flammarion engraving. And it was not really, nevertheless, it blew my mind.
Setting
Location:a room of a friend in a city I was visiting
Date:2010-10-01
Time:16:00 UTC
Social:I was with my best friend and we took turns in smoking. I went first.
Cultural:There was no specific cultural context. We were both curious and I was a guest to this party. Neither of us wanted to do it alone I suppose.
Notes:It was actually a busy day. I was visiting friends in this city and had to make it to the night bus on time to get home so before the trip I have already visited another friend and with the friend I took salvia with I only had couple of hours. But I did not find it being much of an issue at that time.
I sat in a big comfortable chair and I took the first hit. I waited approx. 15 seconds and nothing was happening, so I took another hit, which already as I was inhaling the smoke, I felt the reality dissolving. I put the bong down on the ground just in time before I was completely displaced into another dimension. I suppose I could not move, or did not want to. I lost any real sense of my body and space which it occupied. The sensation was intense and mostly vividly visual. I was aware of what was happening and I thought to myself: I want to see. Everything was green and shiny. I never saw anything so clearly, It felt more HD than any reality ever could. The world was built from hundreds of thousands of moebius strips entangled together, moving, they were small roads on which small identical little featureless people were running. Steadily, monotonously, endlessly. I realized I was on such a road too, I was one of those little green people. And I felt frustrated, I thought No, I want to see, I want to see more.
Peak
the chess board
T+3m
the chess board
The world shifted. There was a green curtain in front of my eyes which I managed to I unveil and I found myself under a circus big top tent. There was a chessboard kind of tiling on the ground and there was only one figurine standing on the further end of the chessboard. She looked more like a person than like a chess figurine, but I instinctively knew she was the queen. There was nothing human about her and she too, like everything around was a certain shade of the same green color. She communicated with me telepathically. I think we were arguing, but I hardly remember the content of the argument. The vibe was very much a confrontational one. She felt very condescending and I felt very small in comparison. She forced me to laugh. I laughed out loud, I have never laughed so strongly, I could not resist it, could not stop it, she seemed amused and did not seem to want to stop any time soon. It felt ecstatic and extremely unpleasant at the same time. Then as I was still laughing the world started to turn into the moebius strips again.
Wind down
residual images
T+6m
residual images
I was still laughing frantically as the moebius strips with the little people on them started to blend with the reality and I became aware of my real surroundings. They still kept running around in corners of the ceiling and as I regained control of my own voice and gradually stopped laughing, I watched them slowly blend into the periphery of my eyesight. It lasted a couple of minutes as they disappeared completely.
Aftereffects
glow
T+10m
glow
I realized even after the strongest peak of the trip was gone and I was pretty much in reality, my brain and body felt mellow. Kind of fuzzy around the edges. I felt as if I had not a single care in the world. This effect lasted for several hours after.
Integration
One must imagine sisyphus happy.
T+60d
One must imagine sisyphus happy.
I had to read a lot of Camus to get over the moebius image of the world. But at the end there was a lot of calm in the realization of the futility in striving for the individual in the perspective of the many...