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Preparation
Preparing the lemon tek
Preparing the lemon tek
For this experience I wanted to try the lemon tek. I heard it intensifies the effects.
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I am a shaman/trip-sitter, so every time someone comes over to trip, I prepare a ritual for them. I instruct them to go to the trip room and meditate. I dress in all black and I draw symbols on my face. I then enter their room slowly, playing music from a speaker. Since I was the voyager, I did the same for myself while my friend was watching.
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Dose
1.0 grams of Psilocybin
1.0 grams of Psilocybin
I drank the tea ceremoniously, but as nothing happened for an hour and a half I decided to eat the truffles I used to prepare the tea with.
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Dose
22.0 grams of Psilocybin
22.0 grams of Psilocybin
Wet Atlantis magic truffles discarded from the lemon tek. Thankfully I didn't throw them away as the active ingredients were still in them. One pack is 15g, so I opened two packs to make the dose. They weighted 23g in total so I gave 1g to the tea.
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The way I know mushrooms are about to "kick in" is when I start feeling a general weakness throughout my body. I decided to go for walk. I started to decipher everything around me.
I could understand the mood and state of mind of every person. I could say who had a difficult problem, who was desperately trying to change their mind through alcohol. I saw couples who were in love (synchronised) and couples experiencing difficulties. Every men's way of walk became a window to their soul.
I could see the fears, hopes, desires of everyone around me.
This wasn't the first time I was hyper-perceptive of the environment around me. The difference was that the first time I was in the forest and it was nature that was speaking to me. The city is very intense, there is just so much going on.
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Come up
Vivid/high-contrast and detailed inner visions
Vivid/high-contrast and detailed inner visions
Immediately after I went home, I lied on the bed and closed my eyes, I saw an incredibly vivid imagery. And when I say "vivid" I don't mean it lightly.
I have a powerful imagination and I am capable of seeing things very clearly in my mind. However this was on another level. The contrast and brightness of the colours were like nothing I've ever "seen". They were like beautifully selected neon colours of purple, green, yellow. It was as if a talented artist have spend hours selecting the perfect palette for a vaporwave / biodigital jazz themed-art piece.
Except that no effort was made by me to construct these images. They were presented to me "as-is".
Now let's talk about the contents of the images. It was a blend between a flowering plant and a woman. The shapes of these two "elements" were intertwined such that from a certain point of view you see the flower and from another - you see the woman. Except that the mushroom showed me a perspective where I could see them both at the same time.
I felt a strong desire to share what I was seeing, because it was so beautiful. The visual aspects of my experiences with psychedelic drugs is what pushed me to become an artist. If only I could draw what I am seeing in my head...
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I wasn't sure what to make of the powerful image, so the image started to fade. The mushroom asked me what I wanted to do. After a brief hesitation I asked the mushroom to help me with my relationships in general and my relationships with women in particular.
The mushroom immediately conveyed to me that I put "stuff" between myself and other people. The "stuff" takes different forms:
- false believes about others
- believing that people see me in a particular (negative) way
- fears that people hate me or want something from me
- believe that people expect from me to be/behave a certain way
- etc...
These things aren't actually there, but because I "imagine" it there, I create a real presence of them, which then I have to navigate around.
Now that I have this knowledge, it seems so tremendously obvious that it is true. It explains so much.
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Come up
Mushroom Presence
Mushroom Presence
I asked the mushroom to show itself to me.
At first nothing happened, but later something started to form in my inner eye.
It was a very colourful bird.
The bird wasn't fully morphed: it's contours were blurred, especially the head and it was continuously morphing and changing.
I moved in to other things, but later, as I allowed my mind to drift a bit, I was directed towards a region in the middle/west of China. I was instructed to research colourful birds from that region. I realised that the mushroom was pointing towards an actual existing bird and was telling me that if I wanted to figure out why it decided to present itself in that form, I need to find that colourful Chinese bird and read about it.
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Peak
The Mushroom's Voice
The Mushroom's Voice
I asked the mushroom whether it could speak. I heard "yes", however I wasn't sure if that was my voice or the mushroom's voice. I asked whether the mushroom can speak [my native language]. I received an affirmative answer in my native language. Later, as I allowed my mind to drift a bit, I began hearing a beautiful and complex chorus and instrumental arrangement. The mushroom was conveying to me that it prefers to speak/vocalize through music, rather than language.
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I asked the mushroom to help me with a nasty technical problem I was having with [project I am working on]. The mushroom immediately showed me "the answer". The problem was that "the answer" was a metaphor that I could not decipher easily. The mushroom presented me a rope puzzle, and started to move the rope around the solid materials in order to show me how to "untangle" my problem.
I told the mushroom that we will develop a visual vocabulary between each other over time in order for me to be able to better understand the imagery.
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Peak
Psilocin and Endogenous DMT
Psilocin and Endogenous DMT
At this point I would rate the strangeness of the experience to be 7/10. However, the moment I started to fall asleep, the endogenous DMT immediately broke the scale and turned it up to 900 / 1000. I had no clue the strangeness scale could go to 1000. I thought 10 was the maximum.
What I saw was hard to describe, but basically a 4th spacial dimension was introduced into the picture. Stuff that was moving in one part of "the screen" was also moving in another part of "the screen" but from above rather than the side.
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I realized I was towards the end of my trip when the visions started to fade. I found it hard to "see" anything in my inner eye. I felt a bit stiff, so I decided to do a hand-stand. The moment I did it, the mushroom returned excitedly with powerful, vivid imagery representing the asana I was doing in the spiritual realm. It was as if it lost interest in me, and then when it realized I was doing yoga, it returned like a child that saw me giving away ice-cream. (Yoga! Yoga! Yeeeeee!)
The funny thing is that I set an intention for the trip to figure out whether to apply for teacher training in order to deepen my practice. The answer, judging by the mushrooms' reaction, is a resounding "YES".
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Aftereffects
What I gained from the experience
What I gained from the experience
The next day I found the bird I was shown during the trip. It was a Golden Pheasant. It made me think how in nature sometimes women are trying to attract females with colourful feathers and sometimes it is the males. I never knew about this bird, before the experience. To this day I am still not sure what the mushroom was trying to say, but I suspect it was trying to tell me that I am a golden pheasant kind-of person.
I felt great the day after. While I couldn't understand the solution to the technical problem, I had a great insight into the particular ways I was escaping the anxiety-inducing relationships.